It’s been said that the days are long, but the years are short. At this point in my life, that couldn’t be more true.
I’m halfway through my senior year with a few months until I graduate, and 200 days until I move halfway across the country. While it’s all bittersweet, it feels like it’s been a long time coming.
Last year, I shared my heart in a post about growing where you are planted, my eagerness to graduate, and my plans to get the heck out of the Midwest (read about it here) I am proud to say that since then, I have learned to better appreciate Kansas and all that it has to offer. Although my sour feelings are gone, that doesn’t change my excitement for this next chapter in my life.
A big part of my senior year has been spent reflecting on my last seventeen years in Hesston, and the roles that different people have played in my life. I’ve learned that sometimes it’s okay when someone comes and then goes, because that means they have served their purpose in my life. Don’t be fooled- this concept was especially hard for a people pleaser like myself to grasp. Why did they stop treating me with respect? Why don’t they value our friendship? Why did they betray my trust? Why aren’t they in my life anymore? Questions like this used to haunt me at night, and every once and a while they still do.
The other day, I was listening to Judah Smith’s sermon about being “in awe” of God. He suggested that when we start to lose our faith and childlike wonder, we should remind ourselves of specific times when God worked in our lives.
Immediately, I am brought back to my experience competing in Miss Kansas’ Outstanding Teen. When I competed my first year in June 2015, I was young, unprepared, and spread thin among commitments at school and church. In no way was I ready to take on the job. Though I didn’t win, that week deepened my love for pageantry and sprouted mountains of personal growth. My prayer as I returned the following year was that I would either win humbly or lose gracefully, and I was completely confident that I would have a fantastic summer despite the pageant’s outcome. I know that winning my second year after working so hard and praying so fervently was even sweeter than it would have been if I had won my first time with minimal effort.
Next, I am reminded of my ten year dream to be a barista at Lincoln Perk. A vibrant, locally-owned coffee shop, Lincoln Perk is a vital part of the Hesston community. It’s where I made my first musical debut and sang in a talent show (actually I chickened out, but that’s besides the point), it’s where my cousin/role model worked in high school, and it’s where I learned to appreciate coffee other than lattes with extra whip and no espresso 😉 I applied three or four times and never had any luck. After two incredible new owners took over in June, my big opportunity arrived and I was hired. I’ve learned great skills from my previous employment, but none of those jobs compare to the joy I have that comes from working at the Perk.
And now, four years later, a new dream is in the process of being fulfilled. I began this blog as a platform to experiment with my writing, personal style, and marketing skills. As my following grew and my imagination began to expand, so did my desire to pursue blogging and YouTube as a full time career. I’m still seeking the Lord’s will to see if that’s what He wants, but for now I’m running on the path that He’s laid out for me as a Marketing major and continuing to dream big.
There have been times when I haven’t had the time to blog or film, and that’s difficult for me. There have also been times when I’ve thrown my heart and energy into my site and channel, and it felt as though no one was reading or watching. All of that changed last month when I received my very first collaboration email from a company called JORD Wood Watches. And let me tell y’all, my reaction was a little bit like this:
It may have taken a while, but I’m here to remind you that our God IS faithful. He does not call the equipped, he equips the called. He will not plant a dream within your heart only to let it die.
I can now celebrate with you all and share the beautiful photos of the watch that JORD so graciously sent me. In addition, I am hosting a giveaway for four $25 JORD gift cards as a thank you for all of your support and patience over the years! I know my posting has not always been consistent, but hey— there is a time for everything.
I will now be blogging weekly on Saturdays and posting on my YouTube Channel on Wednesdays. This isn’t to say my posting schedule won’t change every once and a while, but being consistent is a goal and priority of mine. I am so excited to continue blogging this year & can’t wait to have you along for the ride. I can’t thank you enough.
ENTER THE GIVEAWAY HERE